Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way: it is not irritable or resentful
1 Corinthians 13:4-5
This is a popular, well-known scripture and a good one to remember. When I was praying the other day, this verse came to mind. It was because I was praying for patience, kindness, and not to be resentful in my situation.
So many fellow Christians have told me for years to NEVER pray for patience. They told me as soon as you pray for it, God will give it to you. He will put things in your life that will teach you to have patience. Like the saying goes, be careful what you pray for, you might just get it.
Jesus told us the two greatest commandments are to love God and love our neighbor, but in 1 Corinthians he has described attributes of love. The first thing it says is “Love is patient”. If we need patience, why wouldn’t we pray for it?
My patience has been tested greatly these past few months. With the death of my father-in-law and becoming a caregiver to my mother-in-law, my patience is wearing thin. I wonder about what others have told me. Is it because I am praying for it? Am I getting what I prayed for?
God told us in His word to take care of our family also.
But if a widow has children or grandchildren, let them first learn to show godliness to their own household and to make some return to their parents, for this is pleasing in the sight of God.
1 Timothy 5:4
But if anyone does not provide for his relatives, and especially for member of his household, he has denied the faith and is worse than an unbeliever.
1 Timothy 5:8
God has laid this opportunity on me to do His work and His will. I am constantly complaining and negative about it. What God revealed to me in my prayer for patience WAS to pray for it. I pray for a change of heart, for the Lord to help me be patient, to be kind, to be caring and joyful in my circumstance, to have love and give it abundantly. He has opened my eyes and revealed my failures.
This season hasn’t been easy. I’ve had many struggles and haven’t handled them well. I am thankful God shows me my mistakes and gives grace. I will continue to pray for the things I need. I have learned through prayer a peace that goes beyond all understanding. It’s more about what praying does TO me as much as what it does FOR me.
Lord, I am sorry I have not shown the love you have called me to show. I am sorry I complain about my situation. You have given me a wonderful opportunity to show love, and I have fallen short. Please Lord, I ask for forgiveness. Give me patience and understanding. Give me strength and endurance. I love you. In Jesus name, Amen